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Hey So I'm typing this while having a conflict in my head as to whether I should be 'wasting' my time typing this or that I should be putting this time to better use and actually do up my marketing essay haha but I'm just telling myself that I need a break. Talking about breaks, I actually feel like I rest way more than other university students but I still seem to be perpetually tired and yet somehow, I still don't do as well as the rest of my friends do. Aren't I supposed to be doing better since I'm resting more... I feel my motivation waning with every passing day and I'm only year 1. Is it just me being whiny and complaining about studies or is university in Singapore really too stressful on a student? If you have any thoughts and/or advice do let me know. As for the rest of you university students, hang in there my friends. I'm here for you, even if I'm not here for myself.

Or at least a part thereof... It had already been a few hours since we landed in Ataturk Airport in Istanbul, Turkey and we were looking around inside a souvenir shop at the perimeter of the courtyard surrounding the beautiful Blue Mosque. I came across a book titled 'Istanbul - The Cradle of Civilisation' prompting me to make a mental note that I should diary down my trip to Turkey, USA and Canada this year. Looking back, I was really excited to explore parts of the world that I have never set foot on before. Growing up, It was ingrained within me that travelling is a luxury, not a necessity and this mindset has always made me grateful for the opportunities that I get to travel overseas. Every trip is unique and memorable and I want to capture all the feelings and experiences to the best of my abilities in as many ways possible. My 35-hour long flight to the City of Dreams, New York was split into three aspects - The initial 11h long flight to Turkey, 13h layover in Ist...

Okay so the inspiration for this post came about when I was talking to my friend about how we should take note of the main events that occurred each year and compare it with the previous years which seemed like a really good idea. It got me to thinking and I was considering where I should diary down my year reviews and I thought what better way to resume my blog posts so hey ho let's go. 2017 Alright SO 2017 was my main year of National Service. There were many NS-related events and 'firsts' which I definitely can't ignore. Apart from that though, hmmm in comparison to previous years, I actually hadn't travelled out of Singapore for a good 2-3 years since sort of my O levels really due to education commitments and what not. To be frank, I hadn't even stepped into Malaysia other than on a school trip wow. So really 2017 I was determined to travel out more and I also wanted to cherish every trip no matter how big or small it could be. Soooooo In 2017, the ...

The title says it all really. Hahaha, As of today, I'm left with one more tour (i.e one morning shift and one night shift) of my shift work before I officially conclude my journey as a Police National Service (PNS) Officer. I'm not really sure how to feel about it tbh. All this while I really really wanted to get my National Service (NS) over and done with but right now as it is coming to an end, I don't want it to end just yet. I knew I would feel like this from the start, but that doesn't make me feel any better haha. Things are great for me personally within my team, but sadly it's time to say goodbye. Been a major rollercoaster ride as Neighbourhood Police Centre Officer (NPCO) but I'm glad I could go on this ride - even though I may not have fulfilled the height criteria to go on this rollercoaster ride ;) hahaha. Alright gonna pause rn to settle some stuff first before I come back to continue talking about my post ORD plans. Update: Today is the...

This isn't an one-time occurrence. Almost everyday or every other day atleast, there would be a certain event that makes me reflect on my actions and subsequently makes me think and feel that I have to improve myself to be a better person and that there are actions I can take to achieve that. The problem, however, is that I rarely act upon on these thoughts in a successful manner. Yeah, many times I have done what I felt were the right steps to enhance myself but I never sustain these measures. Consistency and determination are two attributes I desperately lack. My day to day life is always so lacklustre and I always expect my life to be better than this yet I do nothing to make it as such. Above it all, I feel like I know where my problems lie but I just don't bring myself to rectify them. I stick to my easy lifestyle way too much. I feel that in the end, it is up to myself to gather the willpower to better myself but when will that day come? Where or who should I be lo...

Hey Been a while since I wrote a post and I felt like it was time I got back to writing. In the past few weeks, I've considered quite a number of times to type out another post but I felt that I was just too lazy and besides, I don't have much going on in life. Currently still serving NS in SPF with just over 4 months to go and I honestly terribly want to get it over and done with. (!!!) Something slightly more interesting, that I'm still in the midst of, is that I'm matriculating early into Singapore Management University (SMU)! Pretty excited for what lies ahead of me in that sense, although I must say that I'm equally terrified of the future. Praying and Hoping that things pan out the way I want it to. Alsoooo, surprisingly, for the first time ever just as I'm about to turn 20 my parents agreed to letting me go overseas with my friends! This is honestly a pleasant surprise for me because I've been feeling jealous of all my friends who get to travel...

15 September 2017 It's exactly 11:45 pm Singapore time right now as I start on this blog post and many thoughts are racing through my mind. I guess it has been a rough couple of days and right now, I don't really know where I'm going with my life or where I will end up. Just as I was thinking like this, my dad just came home after a long day at work and sat down for a home cooked dinner. In my head, I was assuming that it was just my dad who was going to eat but then I saw my mother carrying an empty plate. That's when I realised that the whole time my mum was home she was waiting for her husband to get back home safely before she herself ate. It was really such a small gesture and maybe it was an emotional period for me but it was really heartwarming to witness that small act of love. My mum nor dad aren't ones to show their love openly even though I know for a fact that they love each other and their children with all their heart. It's in these small wa...