Just an update

Hi,

So I found out that I still had this old blogspot account of mine from back in 2010 about a month ago and I decided I might as well use it as a diary of some sort. Fast forward about 7 years from then, and many things have changed. I've done a few questionable things, I've had happy memories, sad ones but I don't regret the position which I'm at now.

Serving my National Service at Geylang Neighbourhood Police Centre probably makes me very privileged and I'm waiting to go to SMU to further my studies after I ORD, yet I feel no sense of purpose nor motivation in life. I spend my free time playing and watching shows and yeah sometimes I do enjoy it but I feel like I've lost the drive, passion, curiosity that pushed me to do new stuff, find out about things and what not y'know.

Maybe it's just NS making me feel like this, useless and redundant and what not, but then again I feel it shouldn't be an excuse to be this slack. I wanna be productive but I can't find the passion or drive for me to do anything useful.

Not sure where this post is going haha. Help?

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