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This isn't an one-time occurrence. Almost everyday or every other day atleast, there would be a certain event that makes me reflect on my actions and subsequently makes me think and feel that I have to improve myself to be a better person and that there are actions I can take to achieve that. The problem, however, is that I rarely act upon on these thoughts in a successful manner. Yeah, many times I have done what I felt were the right steps to enhance myself but I never sustain these measures. Consistency and determination are two attributes I desperately lack. My day to day life is always so lacklustre and I always expect my life to be better than this yet I do nothing to make it as such. Above it all, I feel like I know where my problems lie but I just don't bring myself to rectify them. I stick to my easy lifestyle way too much. I feel that in the end, it is up to myself to gather the willpower to better myself but when will that day come? Where or who should I be lo

Hey Been a while since I wrote a post and I felt like it was time I got back to writing. In the past few weeks, I've considered quite a number of times to type out another post but I felt that I was just too lazy and besides, I don't have much going on in life. Currently still serving NS in SPF with just over 4 months to go and I honestly terribly want to get it over and done with. (!!!) Something slightly more interesting, that I'm still in the midst of, is that I'm matriculating early into Singapore Management University (SMU)! Pretty excited for what lies ahead of me in that sense, although I must say that I'm equally terrified of the future. Praying and Hoping that things pan out the way I want it to. Alsoooo, surprisingly, for the first time ever just as I'm about to turn 20 my parents agreed to letting me go overseas with my friends! This is honestly a pleasant surprise for me because I've been feeling jealous of all my friends who get to travel

15 September 2017 It's exactly 11:45 pm Singapore time right now as I start on this blog post and many thoughts are racing through my mind. I guess it has been a rough couple of days and right now, I don't really know where I'm going with my life or where I will end up. Just as I was thinking like this, my dad just came home after a long day at work and sat down for a home cooked dinner. In my head, I was assuming that it was just my dad who was going to eat but then I saw my mother carrying an empty plate. That's when I realised that the whole time my mum was home she was waiting for her husband to get back home safely before she herself ate. It was really such a small gesture and maybe it was an emotional period for me but it was really heartwarming to witness that small act of love. My mum nor dad aren't ones to show their love openly even though I know for a fact that they love each other and their children with all their heart. It's in these small wa

Hi, So I found out that I still had this old blogspot account of mine from back in 2010 about a month ago and I decided I might as well use it as a diary of some sort. Fast forward about 7 years from then, and many things have changed. I've done a few questionable things, I've had happy memories, sad ones but I don't regret the position which I'm at now. Serving my National Service at Geylang Neighbourhood Police Centre probably makes me very privileged and I'm waiting to go to SMU to further my studies after I ORD, yet I feel no sense of purpose nor motivation in life. I spend my free time playing and watching shows and yeah sometimes I do enjoy it but I feel like I've lost the drive, passion, curiosity that pushed me to do new stuff, find out about things and what not y'know. Maybe it's just NS making me feel like this, useless and redundant and what not, but then again I feel it shouldn't be an excuse to be this slack. I wanna be productive